" Before you criticize someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticize them, you’re a mile away and you have their shoes. "
Tuesday 31 May 2011
Nothing
Monday 30 May 2011
Life isn't Fair but It is Still Good
30th of May , 2011
Monday isn't that blues , but isn't that indigo too
Lasalle rejected me . I had known that this would happen but I just gave it a try .
Those who fail are the ones who never even give a try .
Maybe my friend was right . I'm a way too comfortable with my life now that I refuse to take a step out from my comfort zone . Duh !
I won't completely bare out that I'm a true spoilt brat here , I'm not .
It's not a vice for being a ''princess'' in your family . It's not fault , not my wrongdoing if I become what I am now . Don't just put the blame on me , I couldn't do much for something that I didnt even have the right to choose . My parents facilitate me with all of these , me to blame ? Or them as adults ? I couldn't choose something that God has already set for me . I just took it as it is , I just need to try not to pamper myself TOO MUCH .
I get things I wish to have , I hanker for , I ache for , I carve too easy , just in a snap of finger . I don't go through harsh time getting stuff I want to have . So , once I don't what I want , my mental breaks down . I don't know what to do , but sobbing , cursing my life . For these 18 years , I get back my consciousness , I know myself a step further , I was slapped by the fact that I fear of rejection when the Admin Lady said " So sorry , but I can't help you .'' I burst into anger and tantrum . I started to throw tantrum at my mum .
This time round , I learnt , I knew that in life , you might not get what you want , things won't always happen the way you want them too . And , I believe there are some things that are just beyond my control eventhough I've given my best . I know I sound like a grand nanny but trust me , I didn't copy this from everywhere . It's just true , and if you it's not ... Maybe , you are another Kate Middleton . Good and happy for you .
-Thanks God , You gives me a chance to understand what is rejection and hopefully I will be able to accept the things they are , not hardly pushing myself to change them into my way
-Thanks God , You gives me accompanies ( Sihan , Angela , MengXi ) at school so I will always have someone to share with .
-Thanks God , I have food to eat today and clothes to clad today . Thanks for everything .
"You are so much stronger than you think."
p.s : I need to stop munching too much cheese I promise eventhough I love it so much .
xoxo
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NathaliaHayr
Never Ever Ever Give Up
All this happened pretty abrupt :
Kalvin : *eagle-eye-ing me and pressing the door, so I couldn't push it* Hey , are you okay or not ?
Me : *ogled back at him* yes . *ferocious tone*
I tried to push the door again . I wasn't in the mood of performing some jokes with my lecturer since he was too good for me to be mad at him .
Kalvin : *press the door again, preventing me to step out of the studio* Hey , are you sure you are alright ?
Me :*annoyed*YES , I'm sure that I'm alright .
Kalvin : Oooo .. okay .. *awkward,losing his mind*
I pushed the door for the second time , but ... stopped and gazed at him ,asking '' Why ? ''
Kalvin : *looked so hesitate but he managed to tell me the reason**gave me some puppy look* Mmmm ... No , it just seems that you hate me very much .
Me : *burst into laughing and drew a smile* No , I'm not . Haha , I won't hate nice people like you .
He looked pretty peppy and smiled *exhibited his teeth*
Kalvin : *touchinghischest* Auuu .. I'm touched ..Really arr ?
Me : *Animated* Yes , I won't hate nice people like you and James . So , no worries .*smile*
Kalvin : Haha .. Okay then , see you on Monday then . Bye bye .*beaming*
Happened on Thursday ,26th of May 2011 ( around 12pm )
I think my mum was right , designers are sensitive .
So , I might need to start practicing on how to control my emotions and moods . I wasn't in the mood since my projects didn't complete , not because of you , nice guy :)
xoxo
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NathaliaHayr
Sunday 29 May 2011
Quizy
People , forgive me for I'm supposed to carry on with my VAS project and FDS presentation ,yet I'm filling out this stupid quiz .
This is seriously going to get personal, you ready :
1.) If you were caught cheating, would you fess up?
-Before I was caught cheating , I would have admit it . so , my future fiance , no worries .
2.)The last time you felt honestly broken?
-Mmm ... I wasnt broken . Probably , last year , after O lvel , my mum didnt want to transfer me money since I've over spent for the last 4 months . But , still , I finished my savings before I flied back to Indonesia :) Smart girl :)
3.)Are you craving something?
-Yes , the Ralph Lauren patches Polo shirt -_-
4.)If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
-Swensen's Banana Crumble :):)
5.)Would you rather have ten kids, or none?
-NONE
6.)What do you hear right now?
-Sunday Morning by Maroon 5
7.)Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
- Yes , why ?
8.)What’s on your mind right now?
-Mmmm ... worrying about my project which dues tomorrow , but i'm idling down here .
9.)Are you there for your friends?
-Maybe , but most of my friends think that I'm kind of friend who will forget old friends just because I never text them or give them a call . They are fucking stupid . If anyone who reads this think I do . You don't know me yet . And they come and tell me why I'm nowhere to find . You fucking fool , I'm here but you don't know and don't care . _!_
10.)Last person to see you cry?
- Anon . I cried in the bus -_-
11.)What do you do when you get nervous?
- Pretending that I'm not nervous , of course .
12.)Be honest, do you like people in general?
- No
13.)How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
-During this age and after seeing and witnessing so many shitty marriage , I don't want to get married and I DONT WANT TO HAVE KIDS . DO YOU HEAR THAT ? BITXCH
14.)Does anyone completely understand you?
-No .
15.)Do you have a reason to smile right now?
-No
16.)Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
-No . A person who says that must be kidding me . I don't trust people .
17.)Would you be happier if life had a rewind button?
-No , since in the past , people around me had been so judgemental . Prejudice .fuck you people.
18.)Do you tell your mum or dad everything?
- Of course not , some zones in me are strictly for myself .
19.)Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
-Yes , it matters . People who smoke don't even love themselves and how do you expect them to love others ? Once in a while , I don't mind :)
20.)Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?
- No
21.)This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
-Yes
22.)Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
-Future
23.)How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
- 2 to 4 hours
24.)Are you easy to get along with?
- Depends on people who I hanging around with .
25.)Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
-Lil bit , the fucking stupid maid .
26.)What was the last drink that you put in your mouth?
-Mineral water
27.)What size bed do you have?
- Queen size in my hometown and fucking stupid bunkbed here in singapore
28.)Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
-When I get in
29.)Do you like the rain?
-Yes, and thunderstorm and hurricane if possible but in one condition ( during wee hours or when I'm a home )
30.)Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
-I don't assume , sorry
31.)Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
-Yes
32.)Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither?
-Neither , I've told you , i don't assume , and as long as people dont refer me as goodie recycled bag , I'm alright .
33.)Who were you last in the car with, besides family?
-Cousin ?
34.)What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?
-I forgot , I've never been to the cinema since last November . School of Design takes up all my time and energy .
35.)Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend?
-Maybe ,haha
36.)Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?
-Yes
37.)Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party?
-Nope . I enjoy loneliness , when I'm at home .
38.)Do you regret a past relationship?
-I'm singel for 18 years
39.)Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party?
-Concert , Crazy party for me is so last year .. euuuu
40.)Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?
- Yes
41.)Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry?
-Yes -_-
42.)Do you care too much about your appearance?
-No , shirt, t-shirt with jeans or bermudas is the best . but , for the brands , yes, I'm particular .
43.)Are you a jealous person?
-Yes
44.)Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
-Yes
45.)Do you miss anyone?
-No
46.)Last person who made you cry?
-My life
47.)Does your ex piss you off?
-I'm single and still a virgin for 18 years
48.)What are you doing tomorrow?
- Going to school and ask my lecturer about the school transfering matter
49.)Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week?
-Nope , I'm not barbie
50.)Is there anyone you want to come see you?
-No
51.)Have you ever been cheated on?
-Yes
52.)Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
-i've never given my all to someone . I love myself , i pamper myself the most you know . YES i'm fat and short and selfish and I'm proud of it .
53.)Do you like cotton candy?
-Not really
54.)Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?
-No one , Wenny maybe ? but I couldnt say it was a serious conversation .
55.)Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17?
-hellooo .. Im 18
56.)Do you have siblings?
-Yes
57.)Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
-My cousin
58.)How has the past week been for you?
-I was a lil fucked up bit I tried not to think about it
59.)Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
-YES
60.)What’s on your mind right now?
-To finish this quiz asap
61.)What were you doing at midnight last night?
-Watching Baby Blues
62.)What is your current mood?
-Feel empty
63.)Who was the first person you talked to today?
-The fucking maid again
64.)Will this week be a good one?
- I hope so
65.)Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?
-Yes , when my dad said yes when I told him I'm getting an ipad :)
66.)Who were you with last night?
-Alone
67.)Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
-Nope , I read about Hollywood till I fell asleep
68.)Next time you will kiss someone?
-Yes , why not ?
69.)Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy?
-Who cares ?
70.)Do you have any plans for the weekend?
-Yes
Thanks God , you have given me this hands to type :):) So , i can easily update my blog .
Awake.Alive.Blessed.
xoxo
BlessingCounter
NathaliaHayr
This is seriously going to get personal, you ready :
1.) If you were caught cheating, would you fess up?
-Before I was caught cheating , I would have admit it . so , my future fiance , no worries .
2.)The last time you felt honestly broken?
-Mmm ... I wasnt broken . Probably , last year , after O lvel , my mum didnt want to transfer me money since I've over spent for the last 4 months . But , still , I finished my savings before I flied back to Indonesia :) Smart girl :)
3.)Are you craving something?
-Yes , the Ralph Lauren patches Polo shirt -_-
4.)If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
-Swensen's Banana Crumble :):)
5.)Would you rather have ten kids, or none?
-NONE
6.)What do you hear right now?
-Sunday Morning by Maroon 5
7.)Is your bed against more than one of your walls?
- Yes , why ?
8.)What’s on your mind right now?
-Mmmm ... worrying about my project which dues tomorrow , but i'm idling down here .
9.)Are you there for your friends?
-Maybe , but most of my friends think that I'm kind of friend who will forget old friends just because I never text them or give them a call . They are fucking stupid . If anyone who reads this think I do . You don't know me yet . And they come and tell me why I'm nowhere to find . You fucking fool , I'm here but you don't know and don't care . _!_
10.)Last person to see you cry?
- Anon . I cried in the bus -_-
11.)What do you do when you get nervous?
- Pretending that I'm not nervous , of course .
12.)Be honest, do you like people in general?
- No
13.)How old do you think you will be when you finally have kids?
-During this age and after seeing and witnessing so many shitty marriage , I don't want to get married and I DONT WANT TO HAVE KIDS . DO YOU HEAR THAT ? BITXCH
14.)Does anyone completely understand you?
-No .
15.)Do you have a reason to smile right now?
-No
16.)Has anyone told you they don’t ever wanna lose you?
-No . A person who says that must be kidding me . I don't trust people .
17.)Would you be happier if life had a rewind button?
-No , since in the past , people around me had been so judgemental . Prejudice .fuck you people.
18.)Do you tell your mum or dad everything?
- Of course not , some zones in me are strictly for myself .
19.)Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smokes?
-Yes , it matters . People who smoke don't even love themselves and how do you expect them to love others ? Once in a while , I don't mind :)
20.)Are you going to get hurt anytime soon by someone?
- No
21.)This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
-Yes
22.)Do you think more about the past, present, or future?
-Future
23.)How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
- 2 to 4 hours
24.)Are you easy to get along with?
- Depends on people who I hanging around with .
25.)Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
-Lil bit , the fucking stupid maid .
26.)What was the last drink that you put in your mouth?
-Mineral water
27.)What size bed do you have?
- Queen size in my hometown and fucking stupid bunkbed here in singapore
28.)Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
-When I get in
29.)Do you like the rain?
-Yes, and thunderstorm and hurricane if possible but in one condition ( during wee hours or when I'm a home )
30.)Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
-I don't assume , sorry
31.)Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t do?
-Yes
32.)Would people refer to you as a goodie goodie, bad news, or neither?
-Neither , I've told you , i don't assume , and as long as people dont refer me as goodie recycled bag , I'm alright .
33.)Who were you last in the car with, besides family?
-Cousin ?
34.)What’s the last movie you saw in theaters and with who?
-I forgot , I've never been to the cinema since last November . School of Design takes up all my time and energy .
35.)Have you ever kissed someone who had a boyfriend/ girlfriend?
-Maybe ,haha
36.)Have you ever been hurt by someone you never thought would hurt you?
-Yes
37.)Your parents are out of town. Would you throw a massive party?
-Nope . I enjoy loneliness , when I'm at home .
38.)Do you regret a past relationship?
-I'm singel for 18 years
39.)Would you rather spend a Friday night at a concert or a crazy party?
-Concert , Crazy party for me is so last year .. euuuu
40.)Do you tend to fall for the same type of person over and over?
- Yes
41.)Have you made a joke about somebody that made them cry?
-Yes -_-
42.)Do you care too much about your appearance?
-No , shirt, t-shirt with jeans or bermudas is the best . but , for the brands , yes, I'm particular .
43.)Are you a jealous person?
-Yes
44.)Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
-Yes
45.)Do you miss anyone?
-No
46.)Last person who made you cry?
-My life
47.)Does your ex piss you off?
-I'm single and still a virgin for 18 years
48.)What are you doing tomorrow?
- Going to school and ask my lecturer about the school transfering matter
49.)Are you the type of person who has a new boyfriend/ girlfriend every week?
-Nope , I'm not barbie
50.)Is there anyone you want to come see you?
-No
51.)Have you ever been cheated on?
-Yes
52.)Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
-i've never given my all to someone . I love myself , i pamper myself the most you know . YES i'm fat and short and selfish and I'm proud of it .
53.)Do you like cotton candy?
-Not really
54.)Who was the last person you had a serious conversation with?
-No one , Wenny maybe ? but I couldnt say it was a serious conversation .
55.)Are you planning to get knocked up or knock someone up by age 17?
-hellooo .. Im 18
56.)Do you have siblings?
-Yes
57.)Have you ever fallen asleep on someone?
-My cousin
58.)How has the past week been for you?
-I was a lil fucked up bit I tried not to think about it
59.)Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
-YES
60.)What’s on your mind right now?
-To finish this quiz asap
61.)What were you doing at midnight last night?
-Watching Baby Blues
62.)What is your current mood?
-Feel empty
63.)Who was the first person you talked to today?
-The fucking maid again
64.)Will this week be a good one?
- I hope so
65.)Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy?
-Yes , when my dad said yes when I told him I'm getting an ipad :)
66.)Who were you with last night?
-Alone
67.)Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?
-Nope , I read about Hollywood till I fell asleep
68.)Next time you will kiss someone?
-Yes , why not ?
69.)Who should start the kiss, the girl or the boy?
-Who cares ?
70.)Do you have any plans for the weekend?
-Yes
Thanks God , you have given me this hands to type :):) So , i can easily update my blog .
Awake.Alive.Blessed.
xoxo
BlessingCounter
NathaliaHayr
Saturday 28 May 2011
The Moment You Start Counting Your Blessings,Trust Me,Good Things are Coming Along
29th of May 2011
By the way , today's Sunday .
Bonjour faggots !
In this blog , people will seldom see me criticizing how my life fucks me up , complaining how life's so unfair and grumbling about how things don't happen the way I want to . I'm here trying to accept things .
I'm trying to grow up . I mean , I've been exerted myself to become a slightly full-fledged young lady since I stepped into SP . Don't take this as a joke alright . Every module , every lecturer , teaches me at least something . This isn't Secondary School life , I could approach the lecturers and ask them everything . I hunt them for answer about life , why they could have such a perspective of seeing life . Because they are different . No , they aren't Mr.Samy , they aren't Ms.Nora , not Ms.Toh , not Mr.Wun , not Ms.Neo ,or CIkgu Hayati .
I'm here talking about James , Ivan , Farris , Kalvin , Iane , Edmund , Sawanee - lecturers in SP-
OHMYGOD , they are totally deinties for me . They are great :) I love questioning them so much about why life happens this way and not that way . I love their reasons , I adore theie habitude of accepting life .
I promise myself to start counting my blessings everyday . Of course , I will swear but I limit myself .
I'm thinking of going to Orchard to purchase the Ralph Lauren Polo Shirt but ... it costs S$360 -_- So... I'm still taking this into consideration while writing this shits since I just bought another Lacoste shirt for S$120 . And , currently hankering for Evishu and Bread and Butter Jeans .
I need to start saving -_- eventhough dad and mum don't limit my expense . Guess , I'm growing up , I start to think how my dad working so hard just for greens , while I'm here casting away all the dollars . I could spend like $1200 per month just for my secondary needs ( parfume collection and cool stuffs ) but not now ... I take every single step into consideration .
Blessings :
- I'm picky about food . I love good food and totally willing to splurge myself . The stupid maid prepared porridge for lunch today , and I didnt have it , I hate porridge , it looks so yucky and goo-goo ( stupid ) . So , I went to out to buy my own meal and grabbed Coke Zero for the beverage .
Thanks God , you still giving me food to eat everyday :):) and I promise I'll try not to be picky about food anymore :)
- On the way getting my lunch , I saw a group of blue collar sitting on the side of the road , having their lunch . It's euuuu .... -_- ohmygod .
and , I need to thank God that I've a proper dining table to enjoy every bite of my meal .
I hope I could be an inspiration for everyone :)
''I once complained I had no shoes until I saw a man with no legs."
xoxo
Blessings Counter
Nathalia Hayr
By the way , today's Sunday .
Bonjour faggots !
In this blog , people will seldom see me criticizing how my life fucks me up , complaining how life's so unfair and grumbling about how things don't happen the way I want to . I'm here trying to accept things .
I'm trying to grow up . I mean , I've been exerted myself to become a slightly full-fledged young lady since I stepped into SP . Don't take this as a joke alright . Every module , every lecturer , teaches me at least something . This isn't Secondary School life , I could approach the lecturers and ask them everything . I hunt them for answer about life , why they could have such a perspective of seeing life . Because they are different . No , they aren't Mr.Samy , they aren't Ms.Nora , not Ms.Toh , not Mr.Wun , not Ms.Neo ,or CIkgu Hayati .
I'm here talking about James , Ivan , Farris , Kalvin , Iane , Edmund , Sawanee - lecturers in SP-
OHMYGOD , they are totally deinties for me . They are great :) I love questioning them so much about why life happens this way and not that way . I love their reasons , I adore theie habitude of accepting life .
I promise myself to start counting my blessings everyday . Of course , I will swear but I limit myself .
I'm thinking of going to Orchard to purchase the Ralph Lauren Polo Shirt but ... it costs S$360 -_- So... I'm still taking this into consideration while writing this shits since I just bought another Lacoste shirt for S$120 . And , currently hankering for Evishu and Bread and Butter Jeans .
I need to start saving -_- eventhough dad and mum don't limit my expense . Guess , I'm growing up , I start to think how my dad working so hard just for greens , while I'm here casting away all the dollars . I could spend like $1200 per month just for my secondary needs ( parfume collection and cool stuffs ) but not now ... I take every single step into consideration .
Blessings :
- I'm picky about food . I love good food and totally willing to splurge myself . The stupid maid prepared porridge for lunch today , and I didnt have it , I hate porridge , it looks so yucky and goo-goo ( stupid ) . So , I went to out to buy my own meal and grabbed Coke Zero for the beverage .
Thanks God , you still giving me food to eat everyday :):) and I promise I'll try not to be picky about food anymore :)
- On the way getting my lunch , I saw a group of blue collar sitting on the side of the road , having their lunch . It's euuuu .... -_- ohmygod .
and , I need to thank God that I've a proper dining table to enjoy every bite of my meal .
I hope I could be an inspiration for everyone :)
''I once complained I had no shoes until I saw a man with no legs."
xoxo
Blessings Counter
Nathalia Hayr
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